I'm starting new meds today. I was told to take it at night but it's a stimulant and stimulants keep me awake so I'm taking it in the morning (now ). #anorexia #ana #anamia #bulimia #ednos #dontreportjustblock I hope I'm not late for school but I need to squeeze in some time for a cigarette. I don't think I can. I have 30 minutes and I still have a million things to do and a cigarette takes 10 of those minutes away so 🤷🏻♀️ Anyway, I'm getting better with not binging! Now to stop maintaining and start losing, I got this.
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I guess I'm trying to change my style a bit again whoops #anorexia #ana #anamia #bulimia #ednos #dontreportjustblock Why do I keep binging??? I'm so sick of it. I need more self discipline. I need more self control. So my eyes look pretty spooky today and I'm going to start practicing a Chelsea smile after school. I hope Halloween is great this year. What's your favorite holiday? If you can't already tell, mines Halloween.
I need to quit binging. I need to quit binging. I need to quit binging. #anorexia #ana #anamia #bulimia #ednos #dontreportjustblock I'm going to start making healthier choices so maybe I can stop binging. It's just if I eat one thing, I end up eating everything. Need to stay in control. I've been gaining too much and I can feel it.
People saw the worst of me today and I don’t know how to cope with it. I broke down in class and just sobbed quietly for about half an hour. People noticed but they just weren’t sure what to do about it... some of them messaged me and the tutor offered to buy me coffee but I was so scared that they’d unwillingly find out about my insecurities that I just pushed them away. I tried my best to explain that I’m just not coping but I constantly felt so guilty for taking up their time that I kept apologising and trying to escape; I think it made people really confused. “Why are you apologising so much??” Because I’m not important enough for you to be taking time out of your day to check up on. I’m broken and scared and whilst I’m grateful for your concern I’m better off alone. Run away before you get sucked in, it’ll honestly be better for you in the long run. I’ll just fade away and hopefully none of you will notice... #depression #anxiety #suicide #suicidal #selfloathing #breakingpoint #vent #ventaccount #dontreportjustblock
I've seem to have changed my dreams. It's no longer being successful, it's being skinny. #anorexia #ana #anamia #bulimia #ednos #dontreportjustblock Depression is hitting me like a truck 🙃 I didn't go to the choir concert yesterday. I never skip stuff like that. My anxiety was very bad, if I didn't go home I'm sure I would have made a fool of myself with having a panic attack in front of loving parents and families. I just can't do that, I'll open up the wounds on my arms, I can't control what I do during one and I know what happens so it's best to just avoid it all together. I can't traumatize anyone like that, it can get pretty bad. Yesterday was horrible. Hopefully today will be better but I sure don't feel better.
Damn 👌🏻💯 - - #meme #memes #memesdaily #offensivememe #offensivejokes #offensivememes #offensive #offensivehumor #edgymemes #dontreportjustblock #jokes #offended #haha #rofl #follow #cringe #followback #like4like #like4follow #fun #funny #papafranku #LordMemes #comedy #IDubbz #dankmemescantmeltsteelbeams #Lit #Aborted #Wow #Cringe
I feel really weird today #anorexia #ana #anamia #bulimia #ednos #dontreportjustblock I have to eat today because I have a school concert and I can't be emotionless, I have to have energy. I'm pretty sure I'm getting sick again, but that's fine because then I won't be able to eat much. I can't wait until tomorrow after school so I can do what I want, all day today I can't have any me time XD I miss my PS4 and my doggie I hope I don't get too sick before the concert but at the same time I do because this is the least prepared I've ever been. Idk most of the lyrics and I keep coming in on the wrong time and I don't even know how to pronounce some of it. It's so fricken confusing and our new teacher doesn't help. Ugh help me.
Idk if I posted this yet or not because I get reported a lot and some posts are taken down. #anorexia #ana #anamia #bulimia #ednos #dontreportjustblock He makes me want to recover, and I'm so confused. So I drank a lot last night and ate so damn much. Not checking the scale for a few days, I would not be able to handle seeing the number. I need to take control very soon otherwise all of the work I've put in is for nothing.
Live post. I haven't felt like this in a while. But I am beyond tired this time. I feel so dead inside and empty. My insides ache and my heart is beating fast. Nervous about everything and scared of everything. 0% energy to do anything or want to do anything. The feeling inside is not comforting. It's a feeling where nothing is right and nothing is healing. My heart feels so heavy and my entire world seems so dark. #depressed #sad #heavy #broken #dontreportjustblock
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Pretty sure I'm going to tribal court. I don't have anything nice to wear 😭 #anorexia #ana #anamia #bulimia #ednos #dontreportjustblock I've been eating way too much these past few days and I may or may not be drinking tonight so I'm fucked. I gained back all of the weight I lost this week. I'm just so hungry ugh. Once I start eating I can't stop. I lost all control, I need to get it back.
I didn't realize how sick I was until last night when I ate way more than I could handle. I could feel my body building fat later on. I slept for so long, like my body wanted to shut down. I gained, a lot. #anorexia #ana #anamia #bulimia #ednos #dontreportjustblock I feel very heavy today and warm. It's grossing me out. I have anxiety and idk why, it's not bad but I know this is only the beginning so it'll get worse. I had some weird dreams last night, I knew I was dreaming, but everyone was telling me I was crazy for thinking that. So I did what I wanted. I tried to die, but couldn't find a way how, so instead I flew. I love to fly, it's so peaceful. And other dreams, I was cutting up bodies but it's a very faint memory. Kinda glad I hardly remember because it was gross.